Endogenic Systems is a non-clinical term which seems to have originated on Tumblr. It refers to people without trauma-based dissociation who claim to have alternate personalities that were consciously created. These individuals acknowledge their personalities were willfully created, and describe them as having their own likes, dislikes, personality, and lives. The key difference is there there is no amnesia between parts, since there is no clinical dissociation happening.
Tulpas are also included when discussing Endogenic Systems, but they are somewhat different. The creation of a Tulpa is a spiritual experience, and the relationship the person has with his/her Tulpa can be quite impactful.
As you can imagine, this concept ruffles the feathers of many with trauma-based dissociation. Many of us have faced a lifetime of invalidation of our abuse, and similarly our diagnosis. The mental health community is woefully undereducated on trauma disorders, and sometimes our initial experiences with therapists does even more harm. Our diagnosis is further vilified in media and fiction movies like Identity (2003) and Split (2016). This makes it difficult for us to fully trust in our interpersonal relationships, because other people’s only awareness of the diagnosis are from these extreme fiction examples.
And then, there’s those of us with DID and Ritual Abuse. It’s not uncommon for us to have parts that aren’t fully formed identities. We may have a part “in control” of creating fake or temporary parts for a programming purpose. These temporary parts are sometimes referred to as spirits, demons, shadows, etc.
Our system refers to them as shadows. Shadows exist to fulfill an order, and when that is completed, they collapse back into the elements they were created from. The part who controls their development and demise, then collects these elements and stores them away the next time they are needed to create.
I often witness discussions in online DID communities, and I see the vitriol and hatred towards Endogenics and Tulpas. I understand where this is coming from, but at the same time, my heart hurts because I know I surely would be attacked for siding with the less-than-popular opinion that parts can consciously be created, destroyed, etc. at will in some systems. Attacks by the survivors we would be able to relate to.
This can trigger other programming as well. Programming designed to make us believe that we will never be believed if we try to tell about the ritual abuse. And when we witness such hurtful responses from the DID community, it only reinforces our abusers’ messages.
It can get destabilized and confusing in our head very quickly with multiple programs being fired off like this. I only wish the DID community could be more open-minded and accepting, instead of impulsively reacting and unknowingly hurting others.